I love this song! It came out in 2016, but I still listen to it regularly as a reminder of God’s faithfulness.
When I was younger there was a doubt that came in my head that said, “God isn’t faithful.”
It was a lie I believed for a few years and it kept me from having a real relationship with God. If He wasn’t faithful to me, then why should I trust Him? At that point in my life I stopped turning to Him for guidance and instruction. I thought that I could figure it out as good as He could. It led to a very dark time in my life where I was far from Him.
It was a self-fulfilling prophecy. I believed He wasn’t faithful and didn’t trust Him for important decisions in my life. Then when he wasn’t ‘faithful’ in the decisions I made without Him, I could say, “See, He isn’t faithful like He says He is…” There came a point in my life when I was really confused and mixed up and in a bad place.
I turned back to Him. One of my first questions was, “You said you were faithful, but you weren’t, why not?”
That’s when I had the idea pop into my mind. He didn’t turn away from me or forsake me, I turned away from Him. I excluded Him in my decision-making process. I ignored His wisdom. I tried to do things my own way.
He had left me. I left Him.
Over the past couple years I have been through some really hard times. My marriage fell apart and a whole other bunch of problems occurred and many of them were self-inflicted. I had messed up bad.
You know who was still there though for me in all of it? God.
He was faithful. I would go to bed terrified and full of anxiety.
The only thing that calmed me down enough to be able to sleep was His still, small voice, “I am faithful. Trust me.”
Taking it one day at a time, I did trust Him. I walked through some of the hardest grief, the most humbling circumstances, some real challenges, and every step of the way He was saying, “I am here. I am faithful. Trust me.”
Step by step, I experienced little (and big) victories. I took it a day at a time. I didn’t stress about a 1-year or 5-year plan and honestly, I still don’t have a “plan” for what’s next. But I am taking it one day at a time and I know God is with me and He is for me and I can trust Him.
He has proven it time and time again the past couple years, many times before that, and even now, day by day. Trusting God isn’t like some magical genie that makes life perfect, but it is like having a loving and caring Father who looks out for you and provides for your needs. It is like having a comfort when it looks like things are out of control. It is like having peace despite the chaos swirling around you.
God is faithful! He has proven Himself to me over and over again. Trust Him.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”Deuteronomy 31:6