I am reluctant to share these sketches because I don’t like them.
Drawing is hard.
The harder I try, the more disappointed I become with what I draw.
Yes, I am a recovering perfectionist.
Yes, I have never had formal lessons, though I’ve read several books.
What I am starting to understand that besides lighting and shading making something realistic, it is actually proportion that is hardest to “get right” in a sketch.
As I have observed in my own sketches, the head size of a person or animal usually is drawn larger in proportion to the rest of the body. When I read some books on sketching, several of them noted that this is common and is something we have to “untrain” our brains to make it look right.
I am not there yet.
I am going to keep trying.
Art is something you can be naturally gifted at, but it also takes continual practice to improve and grow as an artist. Sometimes I have a hard time picking up a pencil, though, when I feel like I have to draw it perfect or make it look just right.
That inhibits me from growing because I am afraid to fail. It’s not even like someone is grading what I create. In my mind, I look at it and judge it as a failure. I’ve got to keep trying, keep practicing, keep pushing to create something without any judgement, internal or external, hanging over my head.
I need to remind myself, I am drawing because I love it. I am drawing because it gives me joy. I am drawing because creating art is important to me.